tumblr_m0b02tbzfi1r8v0yro1_500PLEASE NOTE:  The following post is extremely embarrassing and extremely difficult for me to post, but I feel like I need some accountability in my life so I’m going public!

Last week I went on a tour of the Rila Monastery in Bulgaria.  The tour was beautiful and, as usual, one of the other people on the tour offered to take a picture of me.  I thanked him, and joked with him about how people don’t believe I actually visit places because I never have pictures with them, and I then I said no.  The fact that I don’t have pictures of myself in all of the fabulous places I visit IS a joke, but the reason for it isn’t funny.  The reason I don’t take pics of myself is because I hate how my body looks.  Seeing my body in a photo reminds me of how fat I have gotten and it’s not a reminder I like.

The first time I went traveling in Europe, I went from a size 14 pants to a size 8 in less than 6 months with virtually no effort.  This had to do with huge lifestyle changes including walking (a lot) more and not eating processed crap all the time.  For the first time in a long time, I actually liked my body.

Then I returned to the USA.  Within two years I had gained all the weight back and, 10 years later, it’s still with me.

When I started traveling again, I told myself I would start losing again.  It hasn’t happened.  If anything, I’ve gained.  And I know why.  My lifestyle is different now.  When I lost the weight before, I had a job that kept me very busy and I was around people all the time so I was always doing something.  I also knew I was on tight time frame to see everything so I was constantly out walking and exploring.  This was also before the internet was so prolific and traveling with a laptop was almost a requirement.

These days, I spend the vast majority of my waking hours on my laptop.  I am either studying, working, watching videos or otherwise messing about.  What I’m NOT doing is moving which means my ass is growing.  I am also alone most of the time which means I have little/no motivation to do anything else.  Also, since I’ve acquired perma-traveler status, I’ve lost my urgency to see things.  I tell myself that I can always come back and that means I am missing out on a lot.

I know all of this, it is all fixable, and yet I continue to do it. But, I want to change, so here is what I am going to do:

  • I am going to post my photos and stats on this blog (This is the scary part! Photos of me in a bathing suit on the internet! GAH!). No, I’m not going to turn this into a weight-loss/fitness blog, but I need some accountability so look for a “Getting Fit While Traveling” link up top where anyone who is interested can see what I’m up to.  I encourage you to join me, question me, call me out or whatever.  I could use a good kick in the ass and maybe even some cheering on.  And who knows, maybe it will help someone else.
  • Going forward, I am going to focus on being around people more.  This probably means more Helpx and less House Sitting.  When I am staying alone in a house it’s way too easy to get sucked into the internet.  if I’m Helpxing, I’ll be working which will get me moving and I’ll be around other people which will keep me off the ‘net.  This should hopefully have multiple benefits, not just ones for my ass.
  • I’m going to take the bodyrock.tv 30 Day Challenge.  I get bored extremely quickly so doing a training program that has me doing the same things every day is just not the answer.  In this challenge it’ll be a new workout every day so hopefully that will keep me engaged.  The challenge officially starts on Monday the 7th but I think videos won’t be up in the morning Europe time so I will be starting on the 8th.

Some people might think I’m crazy for posting this or that I shouldn’t post it on my travel blog but that’s ok.  The fact is, I need the accountability and support and I figured this was the best place to get it.  I welcome your questions, comments and suggestions, and if anyone wants to join me in the challenge, that’d be awesome!